Black.Mole

2012-02-01T09:18:00.002+08:00

Wisdom Extraction

Skipped school for my wisdom tooth extractions.

Finally able to push so much time forward and had it done ytd morning and extracted my two lower ones. Had to go under LA.

This X-ray was take right before my Phillippines Trip.

Did another x-ray on Monday itself and my left lower was giving me problems like infection and sligh swollen with uncomfortable feelings. My surgery was scheduled on the 22 FEB, but i guess my tooth cant wait another 1 month of sufferings. While planning to reschedule a earliest date, one of the nurses came and informed me that there is a surgery tml at 9am, which is on the Tuesday. Without much longer hesitation, i agreed for it. Was really rush.

My Dentist and his assistant were really good. There care was so much more than i have expected.

While laying on the chair, his assistant covered my upper body with clothe and i told her that im feeling cold; could she cover my legs as well. Immediately, she had it done quickly and even provide me with warm water bottle for my hands.

While going through the surgery, she has been talking to me likewise for the dentist too.

Never heard any dentist or doctor apologized when injecting the anesthetic into both of my lower jaw gums. These parts were the scariest, probably more of the physical part, whilst the mentally disfunction time was the drilling, vibrating, pushing, cracking and pulling part. WOO~~~

After one entire day, the anesthetic on my lower chin has gone but not my tongue. Ytd night, my whole tongue is still super numb. Couldnt feel anything at all. Have to swollen it. A cooked me porridge and i couldnt even bite on anything just purely swollen things down. Feels like my tongue has gone, no taste and no sensation. Worried much.

BUT BUT this morning my tongue is so much better, my tongue could feel some sensation. I felt my teeth too! Only thing was the swelling part. Need some time for it to cool down. =)

Anyway i have to feed myself well before the surgery.

On ren re day, went over to my ah ma house for 3rd round of steamboat.

But i skipped my date with Han, HUi and coco for he pan. =( Sorry! Make it some other day to meet up! ^^

Had MAC cravings, Double Mcspicy, Double beef pro. set meals and 20 piece nuggets n a bag of apple dippers for two. TOTALLY INSANE! Even the counter stuff gave us a skeptical look. HAHA!

After a day surgery, face swells up.

Random shot before i head off for my nap and then work.

Yes, after surgery im heading to work. I had to much to do and catch up for school work! #deadshitme

Cant believe CNY is over and now IT FEB already?!?!?!?

xxwenaxx

2012-01-30T00:20:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday.

Things could have been totally different if i have made a different move.

Why does it have to turn things as bad as what i thought. =(

Anyway, Happy Birthday to everyone who are still reading my blog.

From now on, i will try to be myself as much as possible. Seriously, its really a waste of time trying to be another or even changing oneself or someone who you always thought that you will be appreciated but in fact you are not. Its very saddening.

p/s: listen listen listen and be alert. Foolish girl.

xxwenaxx

2012-01-26T11:03:00.018+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year!

Still trying to edit my photos of my philioppines trip. Plus chionging work and school readings.

Worse of all, im still procrastinating due to this super long holidays.

Im so lack behind with my school readings. They are piling up!!!

Ever since the last fight that was really bad, we have come down with some decisions and negotiations.

It is really not easy to come till this far when both of our characters and interest are so much indifference.

Both of us are trying and playing hard to get hold of each other and i hope we could sustain even further.

Probably is time to move on to our next stage of life, yet this move is not easy.

Im really glad that i have know you. LOVES.

xxwenaxx

2012-01-24T10:43:00.032+08:00

The Dragon Year

This year will be a good year for me! I really wish! =))

Met up with E and ST before CNY eve. Have a good mini reunion with them first.

Had a bad day before it. I was lucky to have friends who are there for me. Really.
THank you LIYI!!

Steamboat over at my grandma's place. As usual, crowded and food are the same usual stuff.
CNY is just a normal and boring routine for me. Hope next year will be a different one. Wonder what will happen this year and next year. =P

The best anticipation this year is my final year to gradation! F. YES!!!!

CNY Day 1.
Randoms photos from my iphone. Will do a proper post when i finish editing my photos.
Also dealing with my Philippines post!!! I still have trouble dl app to editi photos in my mac. =(
Any idea??!

Wore Magenta toga romper in Day1 from thevelvetdolls
with my 4inch black wedges from bugis - rush lvl 2 @ $29.90
accompany with mustard belt from bugis - lvl 2 @ $7.50

Ended my day every early. So boring!! =(
Shall end it here then.

xxwenaxx

2012-01-21T12:17:00.003+08:00

Goldfish.

p/s: This post is dedicated to someone whom I love so much.

p/ss: I couldnt find any other ways to express all my feelings which i wan him to know and someone to enlighten me if im at fault. Im really lost now.

Woke up with both swollen eyes, totally looks like a goldfish this morning.

Cried a shit out of me last night. Something is really wrong. Really really wrong.

Is either me or others. Im always pondering about why things goes wrong? WHY?

To be honest, i feels that im always the one who gave others troubles and always the one to pick a fight for really nonsensical stuffs. Yet every fight, you need two parties to be involved then you called that fight/quarrel. Like what people use to say, you need two hands to clap in order to produce sound.

Yeap. True.

However, each party usually could only see their own point of view.

This is us. I guess.

I felt that I have given in, maybe you are thinking the otherwise.

You wants me to trash everything out to you, I did really say the feelings deep down from my heart.

Yet you ended me with really harsh words.

If you don mean it why bother to even say it. To me, you said that means you're really tired and sick of all these shit and wants to end everything. There are several problems growing from within already and our reasons to each other are just explanation and not solutions. Did you realized that?

If so, thats good. Otherwise, the problem will always be there. ALWAYS.

Living in a totally different world could make our life even more difficult.

I really tried to get into your world but seems like Im (usually) not invited in and resulting to invite myself there? Do you know how uncomfortable the feeling is when i knew that you don even wish me to be there. "maybe im just a spoiler or wet blanket" - but see this is one of the problems.

Freak this shit... I delete the whole chunk of words that i have typed out. I see no point to even post it here. Watever it is, i just hope you can really really really understand and listen to me.

Im different from those girls, thats why i don understand and i don like it but yet you are not even getting it or doing tiny bit of change. Thats why the problems still remain. Destruction by its seeds.

Don tell me to understand. I tried but i cant.

Then, don tell me not to understand because its better for the both of us.

See this is another problem.

I tried to understand, i tried to get in but i really just don get it and felt so unwelcome. You, on the contrary, asked me not to understand and you never even tried to understand. (running away?) Thats why problems are always unsolved!

I never want to give up this rs, but you don seems to even bother about making slight changes. I know its hard but did you try? I really don see it.

You ask me not to compare with others, but honestly you also did compare us with others.

Years of accumulations, not coming out with with any consensus our problems will always be here.

xx wena xx

2012-01-20T11:08:00.000+08:00

Wedding Bells.

can you hear them?

I could only imagine and hoping for it to happen but in this reality world it repels.

For those who know me well should know the reason of why me marriage now.

I know it is easy to say or think but definitely extremely hard to make it happen for our situation.

So no point ponder much for every now and then. Take things step by step, otherwise i will be lectured again for making insensible thoughts.

But yet i hope it could happen this year though. =D

Loves, wena

2012-01-17T18:35:00.001+08:00

Pre CNY mood

Have been heading to Chinatown and bugis pretty often for the past 2 weeks. Didn't get to shop much as the crowds are really crazy which really turns me off, uless someone accompany me down or I have sth to get in mind otherwise I don bother to move into the crowds.

Did an interrupted post just for posting something random up rather than keeping webs on my blog.

Anyway, Ytd I posted a comment on my fb wall and I really didn't expect that I could receive such an overwhelming response! Hahahaha! A and I were laughed throughout the entire night.

Will try to get a proper post up soon. My Mac doesn't allow me to edit my photos. Or I simply don know the ways and functions of it. Haha! Any kind soul wanna teach me other than DL-ing windows on my Mac.

Loves, Wena

2012-01-13T23:55:00.001+08:00

Hard drive.

Oh no! All the bhbh7 photos are in my Mac but i couldnt transfer them into my hard disk.

Thats why im still dragging to update about my Philippines trip yet.

I will try to figure it out soon. =P and post them up before i couldnt remember anything.

The photo above was taken during our last project (Educational camp).

Loves, wena

2012-01-07T13:37:00.000+08:00

Refreshing the 20 days.

The plan for that day was to head down to SGH for dental consultation but i didnt make any appointment and wasted our trip down. So head back to hg polyclinic to get a referral letter and waiting in the wrong queue. My god. Wasted our time. Im alright but i wasted Liyi's! Ended up my first appointment will be in march. =.=

Pastamania lunch with Liyi before heading to polyclinic. So on the random note, Liyi was texting Feli.

Apparently she is having late lunch with Vanessa and Han yan at J8. So we ended early and head down to bishan to crash their lunch.

Vanessa, feli, me, Liyi and Han yan. Starting from the top left corner down to top right.

My baby brother Jonathan and me Jeremy.

p/s: i cant recall why we name ourselves as these. HAHA!

Split our ways with han yan as she needs to head home for tom yam soup by her sis. So sweet right!

While we were on our way to esplanade. Ai yan Xiao xia. XD

Remembrance. City hall is the area that we stayed in bago city, Philippines for that 18days or so.

Mural Painting representatives. HAHA!

Spiderman was forgot in the reality. =X

Met Shermin after that. Thanks her very much and we manage to enter mbs museum.

Took a tour in Titanic exhibitions. Its really amazing! Everything is so real.

First class cabin.

Dave came and timber-ed for 30mins. Then all of us left in our own ways to rush for the last train. HAHA! That day we are talking about something is missing ever since we came back. A sort of missing something feelings. I couldnt explain it here, its the feelings that we all have huh. So that day, after XLB, we were walking tgt to get KOI and I said "lets go marketing!" - that moment of walking together as a gp was back. =X

*miss miss miss*

That day was an impromptu outing, but the company that we have is just like how we are in bago. =)

I guess all of us feel that way too, right?

Loves, wena

2012-01-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

JANUARY 2012

Just realized I missed 2 months of blogging.

Shall spam them about my YEP trip soon. =)

Loves, wena

2012-01-02T10:58:00.053+08:00

In the Year 2011

That year isnt as smooth as the past. I think it is slightly better than 2010? HAHA. Whatever it is i have gained new friendships through a few significant event during these 365 days. Even though UNI friends are just hi-bye friends, some really touches me with their genuine attitudes. They really make me feel much more 'happier' and less lonelier in school. Pardon me for this long post as I really want to post all the special events up. So here you go...

Year 1 sem 2. Met these bunch of SE friends.

Jie, Weilin, Sam & John.

Even though we met for just one sem studying together, those time we spent together is the only motivation that push me to school lor! Can you imagine how reluctant me dragging myself to school everyday? HAHA! Super glad that I have know you guys. Especially Sam and Lynn, who stay so near to me! =P

WP mates. Even though you guys stop jio-ing me out, you guys are still missed by me!

I will be free soon! Text me for outing kays!!!^^

CNY. One new member. =D

After so many years, this is the only photo that all most all cousin are present.

Han, Coco, Karno

Baby cousin JX 1st year bd!

MBS

After a year, met up with bros and sojini @ Vivo

Sem 1.2: Se3223 performance

HS Angklung SYF 2011

Mr Khamis

Best instructor ever! =D

100 stalks of roses.

Another meet up session with most of the rest.

Come to think of that we have yet to meet so far!

Goddess 5k run with Sis.

Malacca trip in May with Aunties

With cousin (Kai Fong)

Guess i haven update on this Malacca trip post. Super lazy.

Brought and receive my second apple product

Timber with girls.

Got close with Gina. Rosa, E and ST is inevitable so i wont explain much huh. =P

Random ATAS picnic + kite flying session @ SengKang

Food over flowed that day.

TP railway closure.

First and last trip at SG railway station.

My first and last bite with the Ramily burger.

WP volunteering event @ zoo.

Sending bros off for their study trip.

Sprained my ankle right before CNM camp.

Worse when it happened in school on the stairs.

Tried hair extensions.

Participated in CNM camp.

Even though I was not a good GL, i believe and see some potential kids in here. ^^

In FASS, you have to keep in contact with others in order to see them. Otherwise, there wouldnt be much chance to bump into each other.

I feel young hanging out with these young adults.

AND thank you all!

I hope the mass dance was awesome! ^^

Charise and Louis's wedding.

p/s: I look freaking cui, but nvm. Its over. HAHAHA

My first try on pig tail.

Is actually not bad lah. Btw this Bak Kut Teh is made by E's mum! Thumbs up! ^^

When will be the next trip down for steamboat? =DD

My bd celebration at USS.

Gather all my friends(some) for my bd dinner @ raindrop cafe. ^^

Family gathering! Finally! ^^

Happiest moment with my family. It has been decades that we have gather tgt like this, especially during National Day.

The view from our hotel room was spectacular!

Van (bro's) 21st birthday party.

Sorry for arriving in late hrs, but hope you have enjoyed yourself too! ^^

Year 2 Sem 1.

Decided to go for volunteering project in Philippines.

Getting to meet 19 awesome friends!!!! Maybe more than friends. =D

Attending huihui's 21st bd party!!! ^^

Having another awesome uni friend, Grace, who accompanied me throughout this entire sem.

She is my saver, listener, encourager and motivator! =DD

Attended second wedding in this year.

Shirlyn and Danny.

p/s: ok. I look even more cui than the previous one. HAHA!

Done my Lasik Surgery.

Attended Hionghiong's 1st month. ^^

Last meeting before heading off to Philippines.

Our overall events for our project to be such a success.

Local CIP.

3 days of car wash.

Was a very successful one as we manage to hit our target more than what we expected. ^^

Thirdly, Bazaar @ FASS.

Thanks everyone who has supported us for those 3 days!

1 day before i flew, i went for a x-ray scan. Check out my wisdom! =(

Right now i have got to wait till march for my appointment.

BHBH7 Project In December

9.12.11. Day of departure.

These 20 days were fantastic. Beyond words to describe how fulfilling and an eye-opener trip for me.

Not just gaining new friends, its about the chemistry among all the 20 of us. Also the friendship with the local try members and kids, I have interacted with. They are genuine, pure and innocent.

Share with you guys one random stuff.

In Philippines, we always oftenly being mistook as Koreans. HAHA! Its quite amusing whenever they greet Anihasayo to us. Also, some asked if im an actress. HAHAHA! Happy like siao only. The best was people over there assume that Im 16, 18, 19 years old. HAHAHAHAHA!

Our daily magic school bus, bringing us around bago city to Bacalod. =D

The wall that we drew. Reviews of other walls in my next post.

Li Yi and my cute walnut kids during our education camp.

Extremely amazing experience + understand the feeling of not bathing for 2 days.

Night trial games for feeding programe.

I miss my girls. =(

Sentimental thoughts rushing through now.

Out into the middle of the rice field for photos.

Homestay with Han Yan @ Cezar's family. Thank you all for the warm welcome and hosting!

Now then i know Han Yan doesnt dislike me. HAHAHA!

p/s: remember to smile more. ^^

Last two days, flew to Cebu for our R&R.

Waterfall + Whale shark swim.

Fantastic experience!!! ^^

Marketing for our dinner with Life Jacket. Hilarious! XD

Arrival on 29.12.11 with nathan back with us.

I was surprise that he actually came!!! ^^

After looking at those photos, recalling those moments back in Philippines, I can say that I never regret joining this project at all! It had really taught me lot of things in life and brought me lots of unexpected and unexplainable experiences, feelings and emotions. Relationships which I have gained will always be remembered inside me. To me this entire trip felt so dreamy and unreal (no wonder I had so many dejarvu!). I will share with you guys which are the dejarvu I had during the trip. Cause there are really a lot and it kinda freaks me out. As well as the entire group because of my stupid dejarvu. HAHA! Anyway, sorry for the captions. I have been procrastinating since i came back that really explain why my captions sound so sucky. Very serious withdrawal symptoms now. =(

Yeap. So i ended my 2011 with an amazing experiences and my most happiest period throughout the entire year. I really hope that I will be blessed and 2012 will be so much better than 2011.

Resolutions:

Career: I have placed career before wealth is because without career there wont be wealth. Unless im so lucky to strike lottery. Too bad. I don believe in lottery! (Hate ppl who spend their money on such stuff. I mean ppl could still buy it leisurely lah. Just trying luck at times is okay, but not weekly and throwing in large sum.) Anyway, career is important to me for now.

Studies: You must be wondering why studies not above career. This is because i hate school now. I see no point studying in uni. Its not about the faculty im in or the major im taking. Its the reason behind studying. Why do this society need at least a uni cert in order to judge us and allocate how much we are paid. This is really nonsense! So studies is just useless to me now. Yet it is still important in this nonsensical society, so i have to place it in the second place, which falls before wealth.

Wealth: You have money, you have everything. You have money, you have no stress. You have money, you have time. You have money, you have health. You have money, you have relationships. You have money, you have beauty.

As simple as it is. So wealth is the third most important and so it explains the rest.

ALL relationships: Maintaining my love, family and friendships. I have to and I WAN to. =)

Health: Wish everyone healthy lah.

Beauty: I consider myself weird, rough, loud, crazy, emotional, super sensitive and pessimistic. No confidence, low self esteem but not SELF CENTERED. HAHAHA! Okays, im drifting away. Watever it is i want my face, four limps, tummy to be slim, maybe this word slim, more of toned + good complexion.

WISH ME ALL THE BEST!

Happy New Year!

Loves, wena

2011-12-30T04:03:00.002+08:00

20Days in Philippines.

These 20 days were the most awesome and fulfilling moments I had in 2011. Having to share it with 19 school mates and marking the end of my 2011 with a big bang was not what i have expected. Even though this year was not a smooth one, I ended it with a indescribable amazing experience in Philippines. I dont know where and how to start this post. It could get really long winded just to share those 20 days. Having serious withdrawal symptoms now. =(

Im really missing those 20 days where we

eat together

sleep together

cook together

play together

joke together

laugh together

tear together

run together

sweat together

bathe together

and it goes on.......

To me this project is not just about the relationship between all the 20 of us and completing the project on time. Its about the life learning experience, cultures and the interlinked relationship among humans. Really appreciated that I got chosen into BHBH7 and having the opportunity to learn new things in life. Its really an eye-opener for me! Im super glad that my parents actually supported me to go for this trip. Support as in moral and mentally. On the other hand, Im ultra glad that A financially supported me for this trip. Loves Loves!

Nevertheless, Im really relieved to know the other 19 BHBH7 members who have made this entire trip a success and memorable one! Lastly, to all try members in Bago city and my host family (Cezar's family), you guys will be remembered by me and the rest! Thank you all, sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

p/s: LOST OF WORDS!
p/ss: I will blogged about my Philippines trip soon. Will be a super long post.
p/sss: A post to recap about my 2011.

Loves, wena

2011-11-14T11:33:00.003+08:00

Stopped

blogging

Not.

#coming back soon with a new me.

2011-11-14T10:44:00.001+08:00

Randoms.

Happy 1st month Bravyn!

Congratulations to Edwin and Sojini! ^^

Life can be full of surprises and different outcomes. But i believe that it all behaves in the way or outcomes by how us create opportunities and make a difference in life.

I wish i could do something to my likings in life but it is just tough to even make a simple step out of the circle. I wish i could have the luck to do or fulfill my unnecessary desires.
p/s: i don mean about settling up a family now.
p/ss: Something else, my interest, my likings, my hobbies. =)

Loves, wena

The Dragon Year!

2011-11-06T16:38:00.001+08:00

Happy lunar new year!

Will update with a proper post after having to settle down with school. =D

Dont leave this space untouched!

2011-10-16T18:52:00.000+08:00

BHBH7 Bazaar

Bazaar was good. The interaction with gps mates was even better. =D

BHBH - Big hands bigger hearts.

This is the community club which i participate that was mentioned in my previous post. Did a bazaar in campus from monday - wednesday, where all the profits will straightly donated to charity.

As seen in the photo, we have been selling eskimos bubble tea for three days. And i drunk eskimos and koi for four consecutive days! Faints! How fattening can it be?? However, we sincerely thank every customers and friends who came down to support us! =D

We are selling famous Amos as well! =D

Quite a good seller.

Anyway i wore my sunglasses to school, which was really AA. But i have to due to my eye treatment.

First day of bazaar.

Dave, Eugene, Aditi, Liyi, Vanessa, Celeste, me. =)

Will intro them more when i have the chance too.

Second day:

Chongming, Vanessa, Munching, Liyi, me, Sharmine, Shing, Honghui.

Just a updating post which consider to be happening event so far in my uni life.

So took a long break from my school work to post this up before i get lazy.

Cant wait for the dec trip! ^^

Good job everyone as well as our supporters!

Loves, wena

2011-10-11T23:35:00.003+08:00

Oct's thoughts.

Out of the blue, having a sudden urge to pin down my random thoughts, before i leave my blog astray again.

School as usual - being a hassle. Lucky enough, i met fabulous friends this semester through BHBH - a community OCIP. My uni life slightly change for the better because some's presents. I really appreciate it a lot. Especially, the encouragement i have received. On the other hand, school works are piling up and all essay assignments are reaching its' due date soon! Chiong!

Relationship with A is maintaining well - but on the other side, (to me) it was mundane. Probably we have already immuned with each other presents already. We will do some cooking tgt whenever we are free. Most of the time, he will be doing the cooking while i did the miscellaneous stuff. He proclaimed that his cooking is better than me. HAHA. True. Anyway, he has returned from his first sailing trip for 6 weeks. Met him for a few days and now he went for a second sailing trip for another 2 weeks. Cant say i miss him a lot, cause i don know how to miss him that much as compared to the past. Perhaps, I could only say that i miss his present. Our rs isnt that fantastic or adventurous as compared to other couples, where they could go overseas, just go out strolling down the road, meeting up almost 3 times or more per week, night chats, many more. We just lead really simple original life style like some old couples. When we meet, we will be spending most of our time at each other place - him doing his work while i do mine. Simple isnt it. To save money is the main idea. Saving up for our future and his. #49 months. Sometimes i just dislike the way how we lead our life, just because we have been tgt for this long? You cant just follow what have been 'scheduled' to you by fate or 'this's life' way of changing our rs according to the time we have been tgt. But A wanted or i could say prefer things to be very simple. I also would like to do that but we are still in dating mode isnt it? Starting family will be another step to which we have to then lead that 'simple life'. What's more, i felt that even if we were to start up a family - things could still remain. It all depends on how one couple would wants their life to be.

Family mum as usual will be nagging me spending 'most of my time' outside which in fact im not?! Just feels that she is not getting the idea of how things work now? Its really hard to change her rigid mind (i shall use the rigid word). She hasnt been into the socializing kind of person, so it is a definite that she has lost touch to the world outside. Literally, lost touch - im serious. She has the very typical thinking like most of the mum. But i know she cares. As for my dad - he is still quite flexible. Just that he doesnt wan to lecture me. Probably he knows i would think and behave. Friends around me told me to ensure that my parents trusted me, blah blah blah... I did sit down tgt as a whole parents-child talk, but my mum just don get it. FTFT - she would pretent to know what im referring to but when it happens she will just nag like shit. #ireallydonknowwhatshewants. I know that im just a financial support or and economic labour for her future plan - but this is a very outdated and traditional way of thinking. It shouldnt be the way im a financial labour for her future welfare, instead she should look at how i could contribute to the society in a way when i have studied my way through. #edu-uniisjustsononsensicaltome but yet w/o having any uni cert you cant go way up just by a flick of your fingers? WTSR! To be honest, i will rebel one fine day. I just wan to do things my own way and not following my mum's idea which she is being force to just because the society work this way. HATE reality.

Some random stuff - its so contradicting when government encourages (young) couples to reproduce due to low fertility rate, yet they only want those who are capable/ talented couples to reproduce as compare to those who are not "that highly educated" and even implemented talks to encourage young couples no sexual intercourse before marriage? #afraidofreproducingthewrongcrowd? On the other hand, are you trying to say those who are marginalized based on how educated you are; resulting to income segregation as well to suffer and charge them for reproducing the wrong gene that could not benefit society? So then will a couple who have different education level be marginalized from those couple where both parties hold a uni cert or higher? WTF.

Futureplan is to be a teacher or a counselor? Having to major in arts - with this lousy english standard of mine. I have already faced challenges and discrimination within school. I cant wait to graud soon seriously! I HATE MY EDUCATION LIFE. But one important thing was i met really awesome friends through my CIP. Side tracked abit liao. I have a really ambiguous thought recently. I would really like to interact with normal A&T secondary students especially students who are rebellious; I would like to know how they feel about themselves and how others actually penalized them because of their attitude and such. Thus i would like to conduct a "social-education" camp starting from my mother school. (okay that name was just a random idea) Anyways, my the main purpose of this camp is to allow these students to understand what they want in life and by doing establish certain values in their life to change their future and blah blah blah. As i once been in that situation as well. I just wan to help and understand how these kids felt having to live under such stressful lifestyle in SG, where you have to meet all kinds of high standards are being designed. Another point to made - i hope this camp could educate them in both psychological and physical ways. Probably just my wishful thinkings.

2011-10-08T23:02:00.010+08:00

LASIK SURGERY CLINIC

Will talk about my Lasik treatment soon. =)

Loves, wena

2011-10-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

Quotes to you.

Even thought you do not know wat is romantic, I can do the job for you.

Even though you do not know wat is surprises, I can do the job for you.

Even though you do not know how to express yourself, I will try to express myself too.

Even though you do not know fashion, we could learn about it tgt.

Even though you know its tough to set up a family at this age, we can work things out tgt.

Everything has to come together when we are always supporting each other. ~ loves you.

2011-09-25T17:28:00.003+08:00

One more week to A's return from his 6weeks sailing. I guess from here will be the worse wait. I am anticipating his arrival but at the same time feel awful as my recess week just ended. It was not very well spend but I did enjoy spending some time with with gfs. They are awesome. Likewise, watsapp has been keeping me really busy. Haha! They are always around me. It's still an unproductive week though. =( Next week, I'm having a mid term. Can't wait for it to end! All the best to my friends who start a new term too! ^^ Loves, Wena

2011-09-19T18:58:00.000+08:00

NDP'11

Been a month since NDP event. My sis wont a night stay over at hyatt hotel. (cant recalled the name. Sorry if i were to get it way wrong) Yeap! During the national day. Our hotel room was directly above the floating platform stage. Class view! Once entered into the room, all of us went woooo... WAaaaa. WOW!

The view from the room.

Even the toilet view was extremely splendid!

My mum was fantasized by the scenery.

Eric Bro and Denise, gf. =D

Mummy.

Eric and mummy.

Toilet invasion!

Brought our tripods to capture all the moments. Apparently, my camera and skills failed on me. HAHA

By evening, crowds are coming in slowly.

More photos of the crowds that day.

The red sea was terrible as seen in those photos. Was lucky that my sis won this "lucky draw"!
So they organized it into a family gathering. My dad skipped his work that day too! =DD
Was very happy!

As we didnt spend time together as a whole family since primary school. =(

Great companion, awesome location + fantastic food!

Parade started! SHE IS SO MAN!

** skipped all the performance.**
I was busy eating, playing Ipad, and watching the performance through TV. Window frame was crowded by the rest of them. Im waiting for the fireworks!

Sun down, moon rises. Crowds are anticipating for the moment!

I love this shot. See the little heart on the platform? Can you relate what this photo says?
"A humble small heart that unite Singapore till this gory." - that's my say. =D

The last performance before the final countdown to the fireworks.

Gorgeous isnt?? =D

Notice the crowds leaving the stadium? WOO~~~~

Overall, i really had a good time. First ever family gathering after decades. When im still in my primary level, could still remember that my dad still driving a lorry and fetch all of us including my aunties to catch the fireworks from the national stadium. Always tabao KFC, and camp behind my dad's lorry. So much fun back then. Gradually, things changes with time. I really appreciated that day so much!

I hope there are more to come!

Loves, wena

2011-09-19T17:34:00.002+08:00

Don live here.

Misses my boy. Been a month plus I last saw him.

Have been pondering about my future lately. Even though I still have another 3 sems left, things have to be planned even before I file for graduation. I just can't afford to waste my years anymore for furthering my studies. Though it is really important especially living in this superficial and monocracy society. Hate it so much.

Why must all human have a sets of rigid vision and criticizes ppl who are behaving against the norms? Likewise, it is contradicting when the government is concern over the low fertility rate but yet ~~preventing~~ stopping certain ppl to reproduce.

Life's so tough now in SG. That's my say for now. I suppose.

Adults just want us to study, study and study then work like a bull and then by early 30s start planning for marriage. But why?
Society have to create such route for everyone especially in SG to it's citizens. Probably some prefer to be like this, but not all accepts it. Life and routine are allow by fates. So you never know wAt will happen after all.

Afterall, I just dislike how the society are created and influences the human's notion of living. Rather than we influences the society. Which also results in the leveling of different groups in SG. Tired isn't??

P/s: contexts based SG sets of living and my own thoughts. They are just craps from the injustices which I felt, experiences and understands from others and my own.

Loves, Wena

2011-09-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

Sailing Period.

Been a month, since his sailing. Can received two calls which lasted less than 30 minutes in total.

If you asked if I miss him. Of course i do. Yet, I cant stop him from travelling.

After a month, two more weeks to his arrival. Hope everything are back as per normal.

Loves, wena

2011-08-25T13:17:00.002+08:00

I will be here again

A little bit of visual to catch your appetite. =D

p/s: lazy to finish all my readings.
p/ss: Life is fine right now.

Loves, wena

2011-08-22T12:02:00.003+08:00

3rd Week of School.

and i smell stress already.

2011-08-21T19:28:00.001+08:00

Raindrop with awes.

Coming up with my finalization of bd week.

Held a simple dinner with my friends over at raindrop cafe. I was a little disappointed when my poly mates actually put plane on that day itself. But i expected things to turn out like this, so that explain why im a little upset. Afterall, thanks you guys for making an effort for coming down! =D

Dinner was held outdoor as the indoor would not be able to contain whole of 15ppl.
So i was told to have it outside and all of us could be seated together. I was worried while travelling down that night as the sky was not helping me. Lucky enough, IT DIDNT RAIN! =D

A simple brownie + ice-creams from the girls.
Looks pregnant here. HAHA!

Dinner service was not very good, probably everyone are hungry thats why we keep whining about when will our food be served! But they really tasted fantastic. Raindrops do not have GST charges as well! ^^

Three awesome friends in my life. + JP and huihui!
They will always listen to my whining again and again. At the same time concern about me when they saw my tweets and status. Life was great then. So is now.

#1: Acting as one sweet couple.

Really appreciate the brownie and ice-cream but im not a chocolate fan and vanilla ice-cream fans!
But i manage to finish most of it with some mouth to A. Nobody offers to help me finish it up. =(

new faces on my blog: Martin, Jiahao + Doris

#2: Acting as a sweet couple.

WP! ^^

Dear's Friends.

HS! ^^

Look at my Chiffon Dress! =D kept it ever since i brought it.

My Hair like a mess and fake! It is FAKE! HAHA

The girls and WP peeps left that night.
Honestly, it was an awkward moment throughout the entire night. Guess they are not happy and so intend to head home or out to shop after my dinner. =X While we spitted our way, when to drink again. =(

#3: Acting one sweet couple again.

Jia Hao + Doris: one sweet couple, very nice! ^^

Doris and I.

Maochuan and Jiahao

The two twins. Marc + Martin.

Ended my day just like this. Mad tired that night as i didnt sleep well the night before.
Went to back home and spent my actual day over at A place. Watch SCV, nua-ed and slept after of my day.
He keep asking me if i felt wasted just staying at his place and watch SCV drama.
I don felt that way at all. Don know why. Probably I preferred to have a very simple bd day. Just rest. =)

Since we are trying hard to save money, so there isnt a point going out.
PLUS SCHOOL IS STARTING THAT WEEK! SO SLACKING AT HOME IS THE BEST! ^^

p/s:simple life indeed.
Loves, wena

2011-08-20T00:21:00.000+08:00

Start of Day1.

After ytd incident, i got to know more about him and his feelings.

So we I am taking this one month or so to sort things out and change for the better.

Maybe a lot of our friends don see us well, because we have been quarreling so much and frequently.
Things may already turn out bad but confronted to each other last night. Really do hope he finally gets wat i meant all these while. 1.5mths to go. At the same time, reassuring me his feelings to me.

p/s: Cant stop the jealousy.

Loves, wena

2011-08-19T21:46:00.003+08:00

People changes. I know I had changed and people know that i have too.

Sorry to my friends and people who are always concerning about me.

However the only thing i could say is that attitudes changes everything. Regardless its from me or others.

Both matters and it affects everyone.

My life is quite messed up right now because i couldnt handle friends, family and my partner rs well enough.

It might seems to others that i have changed for the latter, but sometimes some issues or comments 'forces' me to choose the other route. Say like shifting my choice of 'shoulder-support' when i most needed to to Alex.

Because he knows how to say things out directly to me, even though he knows how much i hates to find out the truth. Probably i preferred to know the truth > receiving detested looks from others??

At times i really do need friends companionship, but those 'hidings' made me feels more skeptical towards people. Though i myself do this sort of stupid things too.

Watever it is, you can tell how others react with your conversations via their expressions. Yet keeping mum, causes the speakers to feel unrespected or even guilty for sharing unnecessary whining. So usually when things sort of stuff happens, I would choose to either not speak anything or speak to someone who is willing to listen and understand. Because i doesnt want to be a burden to them.

Speaking much about Alex > friends. Sometime things really happen the other way round.

Trying hard to hold on our relationship is getting harder.After all these while, i finally get to know stuff that was kept from me. I found out those ugly truth, im was so utterly disappointed and heart-broken ttm of speaking up the two words again. I break my promise of not speaking up, but i could stop myself because it really has inked in my heart that things happen and yet you are not doing anything to it. Words just couldnt describe how much i am feeling right now! Feels like talking it over to someone, but i just couldnt find anyone to comfort me. After all its just our problems, outsiders would like to comment about it much. So i guess its the same meaning i received with people who shows no interest.

So who can i look for now???

Problems to be solve, should just confront directly to him.

Then because of my actions, friends are staying away from me.

What can i do now?

Loves, wena

2011-08-17T00:37:00.000+08:00

Alright! Finally posted up my first trip with A to USS on 3 Aug. Getting real excited when we meet up at DG.

Had a quick mac breakfast and headed off to Sentosa. He took an entire week off to spend some time with me as my bd is coming. So somehow i treat him to USS lor!

Don care about me looking like a China - because/anyway i have china blood in me.

Tickets and discounts + my fat tights.

Was about 10+am when we entered and loitered abit in Hollywood.

First character we bumped into! She is tall and chubby!

This guy was the second one and he is a joker. After this shot, he cling over and pulled me away; walking with him and ignoring A. Alex never react. LOL!
(p/s: maybe he is into someone else already.)

Right after this, went to explore all the rides and sit both the battlestar Galezy then the mummy invasion?
The trial rides are fun!!! Especially the sudden drop back during the mummy ride! HAHAHA!
Was quite lucky that we waited for about 5 mins for each rides. Good to be there during the weekdays.

Mummy Zone

Jurassic Park.

Manage to take a trip onto the JP water ride.

While waiting it started to drizzling and slowly the rain got heavier.
Once on the ride, there is still some drizzling but slight heavy. Didnt keep my stuff in the locker cause JP lockers have to pay, so i brought my bag along with all my cameras, everything with me onto the ride!
Lucky i brought ziplock bags! =PP

Anyway, i brought three camera that day! Freaking heavy but everything is worth it! =D

Skipped the idea of purchasing ponchos as well! $2! So ex can! =(
Got slightly drenched but not that bad as compared to totally drenched!

Wanted to have lunch but everywhere are crowded with ppl so we took this opportunity to go for other rides and activities in FAR FAR AWAY LAND!

Like a wat. =.= hate this shot.

Couldnt find shrek! =(

HAHA.

Up next Madagascar!

Hitch a ride on merry-go-around! =D

Alexs! haha.

Friends Forever.

Moving back to hollywood and saw woodpeak. =P

She ignoring me to Alex and step on my slipper.

Okay at least a good one.

Then had our late lunch at new york for pizza!

Should have brought the whole set much worth the price.
But only the two of us, how to pack those leftovers???! Drop the idea and ordered another kids meal instead.

Back to Madagascar Slow Ride.

So cute and interesting!!!! =DD
There is this part where the boat have to pass through a waterfall. Alex startled me and made me panicked!
As i was happily snapping with my DS and out of a blue, we have to pass by a ton of falling water!
Ended up when the boat reaches a point, the waterfall retrieved back.Haha.
A and I looked at each other and jammed for a/few seconds and teased.

Waterworld was fantastic and very entertaining! The crops are really well done and prepared!
No wonder there are only two time slots.

When for the last few rounds on the three trilling rides before heading for a show - monster rock.
He fall asleep. Cant blame him, woke up so early, spend the entire day walking round and around.

Finally Madagascar mascots!

So so so SO SO SO CUTE!

Saw panda but didnt manage to take photo with 'him'.
So we left the place and back home. Slept like a pig that night. But it was fun! =D
Thanks love!

Loves, wena

2011-08-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

If life could be like fireworks.

Wanted to blog about my bd week. Just purely too lazy to put my hands on my com

and start typing all the captions out. But watever it is, i will do it soon!

A lot of things happened within these few weeks and i really dread talking about it.

Yet the other side of me wants to share them. Shall keep this post short.

Loves, wena

2011-08-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

Dramatic Scene

To all ladies who are attached,

Could you tolerate other girls whom you happened to know know but barely knew her, to cling over your bf

with her ARMS?! Wat's worse was she deliberately did it in front of me. WTF man! I mean seriously, if you do able to tolerate. Please share with me the trick of doing so.

Im so flared up and pissed with the both of them! Throw my temper like f.

How can i not be angry and remained calm at that moment. Seriously, I felt like a lightbulb that night.

What makes thing worse was I confronted to bf and told him that he actually could kindly reject her/ move her hands off his shoulder in a leisure conversation with her. Yet he told me that he doesnt wants the girl to lose face. THEN WAT ABOUT MINE?!

In another point of view, probably you likes the way she cling her arms over you right?!

Quarreled over issues because Im over reacting.

Yes. I agreed because this is not about using HANDS to touch you but her ARMS OVER YOUR SHOULDER + RESTING OVER YOUR BACK. so fuking piss off with it whenever i think of it.

But yet you don understand why im feeling so pissed and annoyed about it.

Nearly broke up with him because of these issue and our past.

Im being honest here because i know ppl around me are actually discussing about me and my problems.

Either in a good or neg side, I know my limits.

p/s: A, you know my limits right.

xxwenaxx.

2011-08-07T16:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF.

Thank you guys for coming down. =)

Loves, wena

2011-08-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

060811 - a day of celebration which is awkward.

my bad. Will be up soon i suppose.

Loves,wena

2011-08-03T23:09:00.002+08:00

Trip to USS!

Loves, wena

2011-07-27T15:44:00.000+08:00

Salvagiousfame

Ever since March, i have been in contact with my web designer till this July.

Finally SalvagiousFame new site is up and sale post have been launched too!

Im so delighted when she showed me the new idea that she have designed for me. To me it was really well done.

Looks so much better as compared to my first launching site. We love it to the max!

This time round, SF new site brings out a much more sophisticated, feminine and professional look to all ladies out there, likewise we providing you even better service and navigation during shopping. WHAT'S MORE WACKY is our new idea of sales - "quote your price"

Prices down by 70%!

Dresses selling from $12.

and many more......

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BEFORE THEY ARE ALL GONE. *selling fast*

Here are some of the items that you SHOULD NOT miss out!

Black maxi, one of the most popular piece which is right in trend now. What's more when black will never go out of trend. So why wait?! Last piece selling at $19 only! Its a steal!!! Grab it before others do!

America Strips Shirt made of cotton. It is really comfy because this material always keep you cool from inside out! I kept one for myself and im so loving it because till date there isnt a single flurry balls seen on these top. It is very versatile as well! You could pair it with tights or tuck them in with a high waist bottom to bring out a bubbly look!

As seen on me! =D

There are many more pieces on sales too! Check them out at SalvagiousFame now!

Drop them a feedback under their testimonial section, for any quires or comments about her new site.

Loves, wena

2011-07-24T14:14:00.001+08:00

Chopped post

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At the mean time, SF is having SALES.
Check them out now!!!

Loves, wena

2011-07-15T10:53:00.000+08:00

6 weeks before.

Finally i get to update this. ^^

Had a simple family dinner for belated fathers day.

Sometimes you just cant stand your parents craziness. HAHA.
Otherwise will be anger. =X

My nice bro sent us to some where~~~~~ to have the seafood cravings.

MINI oyster egg. Its good. Cause the oysters are real mini!

Their crab are fab as well! Sauce is thick and shiok! Sweet, slight not and tiny abit of sour.

Thats the day when both HYs are leaving SG for newcastle. 6 weeks?

Trying to take a photo from far. But i failed totally.

So this is my post while trying to capture the above sort of photo.

The main suppose of this photo is not about han. Its the gp of angmos behind! ^^
They are from newcastle and taking the same flight as hys. We suppose. HAHAH!

Its time before departure.

Weida left his emo footsteps behind. Atmosphere was rather sad when he has to leave earlier to catch the last bus back to jurong. While us with the girls, stay a short while before they move in.

Bye lo! =(

Yii's bro was there too! Small world that he is in the same course class as HYs.
Jia Qing too! Have fun and be careful alright! =D
Bring me some locals sweets back! hEEHEE!

Loves, wena

2011-07-14T10:48:00.000+08:00

Pig's tail FTW! Uncut!

Spent my week eventfully!
Camp for first four days, work, work and E's Curb for dinner, Rest.
Loving such hectic life which are filled with HTHT session and interaction among ppl.
.......................................

Was invited by E to her curb for But Kut Teh which was done by her mum.
Soup was really really good. Forgot to take a shot of it. You just cant imagine how thick the soap was.
I mean it is just fan.!

Her mum was awesome too!! =D

Does Pig's tails looks like.......... its all for your imaginations!

Anyway pigtail FTW! My ever first time eaten a pig's tail, though i didnt finish up the entire one.
Just so you know, im kinda simi-halah. HAHA!

I did my hair extension. If you have realized. So far i have received several comments on this new look i have.
Responses are average.

Tummy review!

We monopoly deal-ed till 1am, ice-breaking + chatting till 2am and i KO-ed first.
The rest stayed up till pretty early that day till they lack of stuff to chat and somehow KO for awhile before we spitted our way back home.

Was a eventful dinner and girls HTHT session.
Im loving it! =D

Loves, wena

2011-07-10T14:58:00.030+08:00

TP railway Station

Past few weeks was fun. I miss those hectic days in school.
However im still puzzled with my life to whether did i make the right path? watever it is. I should and must continue.

TPRS!

Tanjong Pagar Railway Station on some random Thursday.

It is just amazing to see how typical Singaporean can get. As well as photographers.
Me, not exception too. HAHAHA.

The station was quite crowded that day. Filled with ppl holding on their DSLR with huge lenses.
Random adults (aunties, uncles holding on their D. cameras), some with kids. You will see all sort of ppl heading there to get a last view of the station.

Joel with their polis unit.
Anyway this is my first time, alighting and step into TP railway station. Much typical isnt?!

Old bookstore with old owner.

The flawless pic of us! ^^

A view of perspective.

Memorizing the station for its last usage.

The-must-try ramily burger!
It was f. awesome. Seriously! The cheese...... OMG. Its just freaking nice.

But the amount of butter she used. Scary! =X

Look at the burger! =P Never regret heading there and tried their ramily!

We sort of lucky? As we were scrolling , exploring along the path. The train came and here it is! =D
Felt so amazing because I get to be so near the train! Sadly to say, the malaysian are super unfriendly.
But is alright. Caused the three of us just ignored them. HAHA

The first and last time trip to TP railway station.
Loves,wena

2011-07-10T14:56:00.000+08:00

Im back from my camp.

From here i have gained some insight and how life changing it is for me. That will be my own insight story.

I will blog soon for the delayed post as well!

Pls visit: salvagiousfame.livejournal.com

Loves, wena

2011-07-03T02:25:00.000+08:00

Delayed posts!

WP event at zoo!

HYs leaving for UK. Here we are sending them off!
I wan sweets okay! =D their authentic local food! heehee!

Will be back again. ONCE again.
For a longer post.

Loves, wena

2011-06-27T19:00:00.001+08:00

Before Tanjong Pagar post. Let me whine my sunday.

Received a really bad news on Sunday. Supposedly i should have gotten the news on Friday. But i working and Saturday i was out the entire day. That explains why.

I was really depressed when i got the results and was devastated. I am really disappointed with myself and i broke down at a bus stop. That was really stupid but i couldnt control my tears. I felt lost and the only thing that was in my mind was "I don wan to spend wasting another year in school."

I was lucky enough because a lot of friends are supporting me and encouraging me. Willing to hear me out.

Even though they know they couldnt help me out with anything.

Wat im feeling right now.

Slightly calm down and I just hope everything will turn out how it should be.

I really hope it does.

*pray, pray,pray for me*

Loves, wena

2011-06-27T18:49:00.000+08:00

Hanging out.

Met up with Poly gangs and had a short gathering before i head off for work.

The girls are leaving tonight and im going to send them off later. Getting excited for them!
Europe Europe EUROPE!

Head over to The hangout for a short game time.

Was a short chilling session but we still have tons of gossips to share. HAHA

Loves, wena

2011-06-27T16:24:00.001+08:00

Back to the Atlas Picnic post.

Since last year or longer, this is my second time picnic with my gals. This time round we went over to SengKang. Particularly for families to gather and some kite flying session. It was so much better than marina barrage as its much spacious and quieter. BUT the grass are not in good condition (soft) and we spent some time to search for a spot to rest on.

Eileen brought red wine especially for this picnic.

She even brought 5 wine cups for the wine. Felt so graceful at that moment when holding on and drinking the wine. But a turn of head, my moves are huge. Rush off to fly the kite.

We prepared our own food and they were good! Love Gina's Jelly w longan, egg mayo and tuna w cheese sandwiches. Taste so yummy! I did pasta again. But this time around was a failure because i wasnt feeling well. Then i fall sick the next day.

^^

This is why i wont recommend ppl to picnic at SK. Not to bad still. =)

My camera took awesome sharp photos that day.

See that. Nice weather was with us that day. Not scorching hot apon our arrival but slight humid and slightly windy.

Gina. St. E. ME.
You never know how friends will change and be there for you. We are always around each other when we need someone to talk to. They listen and encourages. =)

Though we are already in our early twenties... PLUS.
We still acts like teens in some ways. Haven been laughing so much lately. I miss my laughter and having fun with all my friends!

Missing is part of the process in life.
I should stop complaining about how i miss fun in life, instead i should work for it.

Working hard also fail sometimes you know.
So should i even work harder for the next try?

Loves, wena

2011-06-23T13:12:00.000+08:00

You have no rights.

Have you ever watch YES MAN?

Here is a short intro to that movie:

Always say yes to the things when people invites you. Otherwise you are a NO man.

No life, No friends and NO happiness.

Only Loneliness. Few friends. Stupid whining.

To my long lost friend:

So the moral of the story, don ever reject anyone else with no good reason. People can differentiate between excuses and reasons and good excuses and good reasons too. HAHAHA! Thats so dump of you if you are doing that.

Don ever complain or whine to anyone when all this has occurred. Because you have no rights to even whine or angry. You see. Totally there isnt any point of it. Even if you are whining or angry when others, think about yourself first. Why such things would have happened on you.

Because you are A NO MAN!

You always say no, No and NO. Whoever would wan to ask you out?

Pls be unhappy with me and not others because im the one who organized this. So come and whine in front of my face and tell me everything that you are unhappy with. I will then explain point by point to you.

Just hope you could wake up to the real real reality world.

Stop living in within your own imagined reality world because it doesnt work. They just fail so badly.

Make a difference in your life so you would be happier and more confidence in life.

Plus being a hypocritical person is good at work but not in moral life.

Thats sad to hear that you are.

Life shouldnt be the way when you are trying so hard to fit into the society.

Rather make the society fits into you then you might be stress-free!

Learn from it. Thats life in other low back country. Probably not in SG.

So maybe everyone should try to change it? Or simply just leave SG for goodsake.

I prefer the latter but i don have money to fulfill that.

Loves, wena

2011-06-23T12:54:00.002+08:00

Once again!

I will blog when im back. =)

Miss them all very much too!

Loves,wena

2011-06-21T01:16:00.000+08:00

A new job. A new face. A new start. But never ending life.

Im down with cough, tired eyes and sweat.

loves, wena

2011-06-21T01:13:00.000+08:00

Atas Picnic ever @ SK!

I love how we gather and have a simple food out on a lovely sunday.

Even those friends always change, you will then find out who are the greatest and most worth the wait for the existence in your life. Some might have others in the life. But some choose me to be part of their life too. I spend most half my life with this bunch of girls already. Yes! That's this long. Time flies right. =)

Im loving every bit of my life now. Even though every moment you cant please everyone, thats not your or my fault. That is the person fault because they are not satisfied with our works.

Anyway Im leaving this post short till im back for a longer content of our ATAS PICNIC ever! ^^

Loves,wena

2011-06-16T09:35:00.000+08:00

Anticipating for sunday!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going to make my awe pasta for the girls! ^^

Loves, wena

2011-06-15T15:56:00.001+08:00

CSI-CNM Pre camp.

I wore MOT shirt for this camp. HAHA! I miss camp so much.

Miss all my crazy friends so much so much! This is how life works isn't it? Friends come, goes, stay, changed and lost. Life was so great for the past few years since one year ago. My life and habits have to change, somehow drastically. Spend my uni year 1 life pathetically because of not attending any flag day, rag day and camps! =X Alright enough of all the emo shit going on. Back on track....

De-brief.

Shall skip the ice-breakers game. Honestly im not an ice-breaker person - i hate to play IB.

But i love to suggest games that are more than "ice-breakers". ^^

Mass IB. Shall keep in within.

Tweeter Challenge. Its all about social media and networks.
Cant stop loving this faculty!

Mass Dance. Personally felt kinda Low. Not impactful enough and hyper.
Probably those dance steps??? Meeting shing later to modify the moves again. =)

Outdoor Activities

Night Activities

Anticipating the actual camp!
Sign up now if you have yet to do so!

Credits: SinYee

P/S: I miss them all!

HY and Van leaving for UK soon!!!!! =(((((
They will be leaving during the late june till early aug and will miss my bd!
I want to tag along too! Can i!! HAHA

I doubt so though. XD Shall meet soon alright!

Loves, wena

2011-06-14T16:01:00.026+08:00

Meatballs!

Accompany hua to Ikea. First time had my lunch at ikea dinning area.
Felt so dumb and amazing with the ordering of food. So westernized. Im just being sua ku lah.
Too amazed by it already.

Baked Salmon with black pepper, Meatballs, Chicken Wings.
Now i know why they said ikea meatballs and chicken wings are freaking awe already!

OMG! im craving for SUNSET Grill's CHICKEN WINGS!!!!
Random thoughts. HAHA

^^
Im trying to transfer 50K of photos and documents (125GB storage) to my 1TB harddisk.
Still transferring~~~~~~~~

Loves, wena

2011-06-13T12:31:00.000+08:00

Timber night on 10.06

We left st out the entire night cause she was taking a stroll alongside of the river.
Even though we haven meet up for a very long while, we still have so much to chat!!!

In need more of this gathering!!!! =DD

Brought my nikon digi cam out instead of my DSLR and which is really a bad move!
All the photos turn out so bad in quality and all of us looks so oily except for Gina.

Life can be so simple if she is not moving really fast pace to be in the top 5 developing countries.
But without doing so, we are not able to survive till now?

2 days more to mid of june!
How times flies and i last check my crazies laughter was more than a year ago!!!
I need more for the rest of 2011. =D

Loves,wena

2011-06-12T16:10:00.000+08:00

Simple Sunday.

Friday had a simple gather with girls at timber and spent my whole Sat in sch for pre-camp activities.
Haven been into this sort of hectic life for a year already!

Camp was simple and nice. At the end of the day my ankle was aching like crazy and i had to made an early move. Anyway my purpose of this post is because "someone said i looks like Karena Lam." Was freaking shiok to hear that! HAHAHA! Okay i couldnt stop laughing to myself. This was not the first time someone said i looks like her though. But that was long time ago. OMG! Im just literary bhb-ing myself here.

I know im not presentable to even take the first look from others and couldnt even compare to her. Anyway i just sharing my moment of shiok-ness only. XD I love to be myself most of the times but at times i tend to fit myself into the society, which is really tiring. So just forget about spending bucks to get pretty and many more. Bucks i meant by spending 100 over for one small product. If 100+ for a package still worth it which is so typical but i don care. HAHA!

More photos.

Maybe not any of resembles but you guys can just google her pictures and mine lah. =)
I think i looks like her more when she is chubbier and younger.

Loves, wena

2011-06-08T16:40:00.000+08:00

My feet isnt getting any better since Saturday.

Whatever it is, im still heading out. =X

Feel so restless and aimless for more than a month now. Everyone seems to be having tons of fun during their holidays. Im stuck at home and home and home. Couldnt find the right time, place to hangout with friends. =(

MISSES THEM ALL!!!

Loves, wena

2011-06-04T22:25:00.003+08:00

What a day out in June.

First i fell from the benches. Fall flat on my butt.

Less than half an inch away, i might land on my spinal cord.

There was once i fell so hard and landed on it and i couldnt really move a lot for a few days. Best of all i did not tell anyone about it. Now there are some issues with my sitting gestures. I couldnt sit on the floor or stool for too long. It will create a sharp pain. I cannot laid on the floor straight for more than 15 mins.

Otherwise, the sharp pain will occur and i couldnt even move a bit. =X

Then this morning i sprained my ankle because i miss one or two steps of stairs in sch.

I felt and heard the crack sound when my whole body weight landed on this ankle.

Felt so dumb yet funny lah. Stupid. HAHAHA

Have yet to visit any sinsei. My dad said its not serious.

There is pain leh. My ankle now looks like a underweight pig trotter. LOL!

Loves, wena

2011-06-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

Sometime life is not wat you expected.

You see, when your life is coming to an end. Probably you might mention that the top thing you regret most would be not fulfilling YOUR dreams but rather fulfilling dreams of others.

Trying to please others. Everything are just wrong now.

Maybe the problem is just me huh.

I couldnt stop blaming the reality. I really hope i could stay or just migrate into some low-back or rural country. Any place where everything are just simple and slow.

Grass looks greener, air smells fresh and everyone are just friendly!

Wouldnt that be good?

But i cant blame anyone or even god. No offense but thats lame if i were to blame them right.

I just have to live in SG because i don have money to even migrate out of here.

Yeap i will try my best to expect some unexpected

Live up to those unexpected and accept the fact and reality.

Loves, wena

2011-05-31T00:35:00.000+08:00

First marked.

Today it has marked my 1 year in NUS.

Damn it was fast isn't it??! Though results were shitty as compared to in the past, at least i pass them all.

But still the same old whines - no friends life in uni just sux.

But fortunately i got to know a bunch of awe friends. Especially Samantha.
She is staying near me, purposely i leaving with her and a gps of mountain hikers to Vietnam for a 9 days trip.
But due to my placement test. I couldn't make it either! =(

Just a random thought...

Realizing how fast a person grow and age resembles the lesser activities and involvements in life.
Have been slacking almost the entire month doing nothing which is really bad. I need to get out and work!
Life isnt that simple especially living in SG.

Seriously, currently studying and without having any income flowing in at this age is bad.
You cant be out shopping, attending any event or activities, etc. Hate that feelings. =(
I tried looking for a job, but they are all invalid to me. So im left with less than two mths no point searching, sending all the resume to agencies and companies to look for a job then is not temp at all. Shall just stay home all day long.

Furthermore, everyone are busy and friends around me have different timings as well. That explains why i have not been updating my blog even though im having my holidays now.

Well. I never thought of getting myself in to uni. because i wanted to start my family as young as possible.
Even though that is really rubbish and insane, thats my thinking after all. Thought that i could even settle down real quick but reality just don work with dreams. Thats so f. up at times.

Probably adults been through them but thats their thinking you see!
Nobody understand my thinking and so i have to listen to them and make myself disappointed and all.
So everything have to be postpone till i graduate from school. This is not the life that i actually intend of.
Mentioned to my parents that i got proposed my bf and getting married but having a super typical parents,
they said that i have yet finish my studies and start thinking about marriage. Thats absurd!
To me that lame. But i have to accept and agree with them.

I totally believe that after i grad and i mention to them again that im want to get married again.
They will spout words like "you haven have any stable job on hand and wan to get married?"

So what do you mean. I cant get married or wat. Came apon this news regarding that a uni grad kinda ill treated her parents. Probably not ill treating, but more of ignoring them attitude. I don know why. However i felt that maybe due to parents not allowing their child to head out and kind; trying to keep their child within themselves causes such intense reaction by their children. You cant just blame that child being unfaithful, maybe parents not being open-minded or with big heart?

I only knows that my mum always wants me to keep her accompany - staying home, accompany her to my grandma place for dinner every single day, just consider my existence at home every min will do, taking care of her, giving her money and more.

Its a definite that im going to take care of her and give her money when i start working. Never did i said to her that im not going to take care of her and giving money to her right. I just hope she realizes that one day im still going to leave this house.

I don really like my life now. Just for the bloody cert to face the society reality?
I hate it. I hate being my current self now. I hate my current life now.
No aim, no stable future, no friends and no money.

I shall stop whining about how i hate my life. This is the path that i chose and i have to go with the flow.
How stupid right. Too bad, im not talented or famous blogger or wat-so-ever who was born with a silver spoon. Neither am i pretty.

Loves, wena

2011-05-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

Sometime i really wish i could do some things that i want to and ignore the bloody shit of others

Reality really sux to the max and so we have to go along with it

and to give up on stuff that we ought to have or aim for.

How you feel when you are trying to aim for your target but due to reality and facts.

You have to ignore your target and get on the correct path which others think is right but not of your interest at all and just because the path is already laid out for you?

Worse of all when you already come down with a decision, you don get the support.

Wat make the situation worse, stupid naggings and scolding that are really nonsensical to you right now.

Probably they are advises but i think they are just intense rejections.

I really wan to come down with some best solutions.

If i wan to do it, i can and i will try my best but i have to rebel.

I just need supportive and encouragement only.

Thats all im asking for.

p/s: Too bad i have such a mindset since young

p/ss: Too bad that i have such a non-supportive members

p/ss: Too bad from my background.

But i have to face them still.

Loves, wena

2011-05-26T13:25:00.000+08:00

Okay i try to blog more often. But currently my life now is not happening at all.
Theres no meet up with gangs. They are busy so am i. Probably im more lazy to head out.
Transportation need money too! =( Jobless now.

Send out countless of resume but they only have hourly job, which i really dislike and pay is low.
So im going to rest at home, lock myself up and feeding myself with junk food. That explain the slightly weight gain. I had my hair trim a few weeks ago and im not regretting it. Auntie trim my hair so much that my head looks so enormous, untidy and ugly.

First day trip to Malaka was awe. Just simply food all the way through. Even though this trip was with a bunch of aunties, they are just crazy aunties. Especially one of them. Literally can just hear her laughter every now and then.

Up to JP for late breakfast.

wanton looks aweful but i like the hardness of their noodles. I use to half cook my cup noodles. So that they are not soft but slightly hard to chew. =P

Back to van and head off for a few hrs to have our lunch at some Noyah restaurants.

Fabulous lunch. But they are not as hot as they looks like.
Chandol to end our lunch.

Brought us to this bee "farm", but more of a honey supplier store.
Brought a few products and i shall see how effective it is going to be. *raw smooth face please!*

Checked in to our hotel and it sux bad time.
I was scared that i even share bed with my mum. So left the other bed empty for our bags and my cam.

Dinner

With pineapple rice. It is extremely good! Really!
Should try to cook this some time soon.

Chandol again.

Cousin. same age as my sis. He is damn sarcastic! HAHA
But he also states the fact thought.

Out to night market.

Tons of stuff to try and buy!!!
But i have no money! =(

Lots of snacks stalls too.

Just like Chinatown. The crowds, the people, environment, everything.

Ended our first trip.
I still wan to whine abt me gaining those fats. =XX

p/s: day 2 will be up soon
Loves, wena

2011-05-25T09:17:00.000+08:00

Malaka trip

Will be back soon to with photos and more updates of my status.
loves, wena

2011-05-20T19:30:00.002+08:00

SHE IS HERE!

Finally! After such a long decision making and waiting. Its here now! =D

Im leaving SG tml early in the morning! Cant wait to leave for a good short break.

But i need a temp job asap!!!!

p/s: I need to save up!

Sometime when you found out somethings that you shouldn't. Wat will you do?
I just felt so disgusted by it. Like literally disgusted much. Don ever come close to me in the future.
I once trusted it again and now back to zero. Wats the point when there isnt any trust or honesty from you.
Nothing. Then leave it to nothing.

Loves, wena

2011-05-16T00:35:00.003+08:00

A brand new start is good.

I felt so much better, letting him know the feelings and i think he finally knows how i felt.

Thanks to Marc for talking and explaining to me too. You are just awesome!

So a brand new start = a new stage will be mapped out soon.

I really hope i could

Thats my dream.

Even though many said that its insane, it cant work, its just sufferings, i really think that it may turn out to be otherwise. Just my random thoughts and fantasy dream.

Loves, wena

2011-05-14T14:45:00.000+08:00

No one can be trust

What will you do if you are feeling really down?

Talk to somebody or maybe just keep it to yourself?

Im a person who would rather keep things to myself. Yes. Though i really need listeners. But sometimes some ppl will continue to bitch behind my back when i told them my stuff. So i rather them not knowing anything and bitch about me than knowing things.

It maybe be helpful when you speak up to ppl. It helps. But when you know wat are the things going behind your back. That will landed you up in another situation. So in the past i already told myself. Trust no one. Yet at times, you really do need listeners around. Some helps some just don.

Im glad that i met some. But disappointed to know them actually bitch behind your back with those negative comments. =( but it is over already. Now i learn my mistake and i shall not do it anymore.

I guess for the past few years, i did quite a lot of mistakes.

Lessons will be learned from there and im going to stop all these shit and move on with life.

It is definitely easy to say than to work on it. But i will try.

So from now, i promise to E that im going to be happy and everything will be a brand new start for me.

If that person wans things from me, i am willing to give up and hand it over to you. Since you are trying hard to catch it. Am i right? All the best to you and your plan. =)

If you succeed, I can only suck my thumb and say all the best.

Loves, wena

2011-05-12T11:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Didnt give you anything, no celebration, no wishes for you and even not meeting you up.
So im here just to type these words out thats all i can do.

Im not feeling any better

What done is done and its over. No more beliefs.

Being forbidden and outcast is a total sucky feelings.

Im going to treat everything worse than normal.

p/s: i cant hold myself back to tear, crash and throw everything i have done.

cause it is pointless now.

xxwenaxx

2011-05-10T05:52:00.034+08:00

What?!

Why does Johnny Depp's skeleton icon looks so different now?!

Its not looking so different, its definitely not the same.

Created this wena's skeleton icon. My idea of how pirates skeleton should be when playing in those movies.

I started going gaga over Pirates of the Caribbean when the first movie launched and i overheard its theme song. So freaking awe!

It really brings me those fonds memories when i was in my tertiary(sec sch) years, my band played this songs and moving on to my poly times. Did a presentation with the theme song as the background effect as im studying in Marine offshore. All about boats sea marine. HAHA! Back then, life was fantastic! =D

back to the main purpose of this post: I WAN TO WIN THESE PIRATES TICKETS!!!

So i went to play with the applications in order to win them in FB.

Thats why having to create the skeleton icon. ^^

Are you a pirates fans too?!

So you gonna catch

"Catch Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides movie starting from 19^th May 2011 and join the official Disney Studios Singapore Facebook & Twitter page!"

Loves, wena

2011-05-08T21:25:00.018+08:00

Nike Goddness Run

Went it with my sis. HAHA!

Run was great but it was really crowded through out the entire track. Ppl slow down and i lost the momentum. So i start walking all the way, which was really bad.

Was really really crowded.

Got back and went for a massage. =D

Awesome!

The hot weather is making me so sticky every second.

xxwenaxx

2011-05-07T09:05:00.002+08:00

She is waiting for me! =D

2011-05-07T07:01:00.000+08:00

Tml 5k Nike run. So not ready and im running with my sis. =D

Has been a long long time since i met my friends. Really mis them too! The lameness and bondings are just awe during our FYP. Too freaking awesome to mention anything right now. But you guys can just check out my past posting around mar 2010.

It's it amazing that even there is a couple in our class. ^^
I would like to mention that i love my groups mates and cliques that i always hang out with.
Lots to be mention. They too know me well and totally understand whats with the "im fine". In fact im shitting not fine at all. Thats lame right~~~ this is how women works.

Not forgetting my brothers.
We really change quite a bit since year 1. =D Wanna make a comparison?!
Cause it is really exciting to see the difference! Just ROFL and thats all.

They are just freaking awesome friends that i had made in my second half of my life. ^^
I felt that................. never mind, i shall not make things worse on the other side of my life. Cause its just really pathetic. =(

p/s: I hate ppl who lie/cheat on me

p/ss: I hate guys who are insensitive

p/sss: I hate ppl who breaks their promises. Especially guy

p/ssss: I hate everything about having a long term rs - everything are different

p/sssss: I hate them who take things for granted ( never denies myself is the same too)

p/ssssss: Hate everything about guys who always give "reasons"

p/sssssss: Hate Selfishness

p/ssssssss: Regret in my life

p/sssssssss: Hate myself for being angry - fucking nonsense

p/ssssssssss: Wish you happy - thats all i can say

p/sssssssssss: Girls are just a burden to guys - likewise the opp

YES! I do take things for granted but i really hope there might be changes.

Sorry and pretentious are not f. cures to me. They are just mundane and useless action to solve long-terms problems. Pls note that. Even if you did i doubt you will understand it as well.

xxwenaxx

2011-05-06T19:01:00.000+08:00

The election fever is still on.
Didnt manage to head down to any of the rally talks! =(( Guess i have to wait for another 5 years now. The polling will be a few days later and i still have yet to decide who to vote for. Ppl around me seems to fancy more towards the opposition party. There isnt any hidden idea of my voting PAP either. Im just stating the fact.

One of the main reason because Im staying in Hougang, which is the well-know worker party taking place.

Been catching tiny bit and pieces from all rally speakers and reading other bloggers blogging about the election and their opinions. I realized that everyone has a equatable stands on both parties.

Government: In the past, it is a definitely foresee situation that without PAP there would be Singapore now. Without our forefathers working and thriving to achieve her forecast targets, there wont be this "atas" singapore as per see.

If you know me well, you will know that my idol is LKY as well.
But this does not mean that i will either vote for the PAP due to my idol fantasy or the worker party yet.

Both parties are fighting real intense in this year election. Ppl are criticizing how worker party representatives are "under-educated", only know how to talk cock, say only no actions, no plans and only know how to oppose the government. But my say is that without any opposition party in the government, probably the state will push all prices and costs up "unnecessary"? At least with one opp party having a stand in the state to represent lower status people or her grassroot over the issues of rising cost and high standard of living in sg. But i really thinks that we cannot just accept what the government has implemented/ implementing in the far future and of course the state should really look into the lower income people conditions (living- i should say)

Yeap. I do agree that opposition parties like to target and questions over the problems that the state had caused or done. But without the state will there even be any solutions that has help wat sg has come to now? Im standing in both side.

As one of my friend mentioned that we should cast our votes to the opposition party so that the state could feel the challenge and this will make them improve themselves likewise that will benefit us too.

Mr LTK

I strongly believed that the opposition parties are not trying to win the residents votes in order to have a seat in the state. In fact, i think that they are trying to get involved together with the state so there will be two parties handling and discussing on upcoming issues from two points of view. Probably some are saying that there isnt a need to have two different state in a country as this might trigger more problems? IDK. It seems to me that having a opp party involving in the state, they will look upon their people, citizens welfare as well.

Its such a confusing decision to make on 7 May' 11.
Both party have their rights and say. One who focus more on the surface to develop SG, whilst the other put their concern towards the grassroots.

SO what's your vote?
xxwenaxx

2011-04-23T13:44:00.000+08:00

Nostalgia

Honestly, I miss my school life in HS.
Even though i took 5 years to complete it, i gained lots of experience and lovely friends!
Those moments will never be forgotten. seriously.

Met up with JL first to have mac in sch and saw Uncle Daniel! DAMN!
Once he saw me and said "I still remember all your rumors!" Thats was how good my life could be. AH~
Nostalgia to the max.

Some stuff have changed in school. But there is one that will always be there. The attitudes of the kids.
Totally cant stand their bird face.
Li Ting and JL
I know them for 21 and 8 years respectively. Time really flies.

See even there is a unknowingly pond build. Trying to greening the school?

Just a shot of the random corridor, which we always hang around. OMG!
Friends do you feel me?

So much about the school. Our purpose was to head down with the angklung gp for the SYF.

Mr Khamis
The best instructor i ever have came across!

Roses dedicated for the young musicians from Mr Khamis.
But we took it for memory photos.

Back to HS.

Three of us have certain plans and we are going to fulfill it! Exciting and I cant wait for my exams to over ASAP!

Some other nostalgia memories.

Remember the vending machine. HAHA!

The walls ice-cream UNCLE!!!!!! Been almost 10 years.

=)

p/s: DEAR E! I WILL GET TO YOU SOON! LOVE YOU!! =D PLS FORGIVE ME!!!!!
Loves, wena

2011-04-20T19:18:00.001+08:00

Moment of Happiness

I WILL BE BACK! =D
p/s: please pardon my hair

2011-04-18T09:35:00.001+08:00

Self-esteem

Before heading to my books which i really hate wat i am doing now.

But this is not my choice though. Alright! The main purposes of this post is all about how women portray or view themselves.

Being a girl-women on earth. I believe that most women would definitely feel insure about themselves regards of looks, figure, miss popularity, job, pay and many more. Those who felt that they are content about themselves, thats really great. However, those girls/ women living on the globe who have low self-esteems. Don worry you are not the only one feeling that way. Im in that situations too.

Believe that you girls encounter countless of situations when -

Physical appearance: You are telling others that you are fat, but they find that you are either fine or skinny or slimmed down. But you insist that YOU ARE (STILL) FAT, when you are totally not! Thus resulted this irritating you appearing in others eyes. Will you still continue to say that you are fat? Or you would do something to it?

Definitely when ppl got irritated by you, they will either bitch on your back or confront you that "Pls do some exercises then and stop complaining that you are fat. When you are not doing anything."

YESH. Im one of the irritating ones. I hate myself to be "fat".

Im not content with my weight and my looks and everything. Heard of this sentence - " Life is too short to complain. Lets make full use of them."

BUT have you guys wonder that living in this "rich" society, its so hard to grab everything that you want and make full use of life now? To me it is. Without money in SINGAPORE, you can hardly- barely survive with happiness. With money in this CITY, definitely there will be happiness if not otherwise.

At times i really hope that our mother earth could restart everything and set certain restrictions.

Creating unselfish humans, no killers, no robbers and no f* ppl.

Honestly, I emvy those girls and women who are showing themselves well with that much of confidence in them. But its hard to have the confidence. Its just hard. Its really is.

To add on, if one has a pretty face. Everything seems to goes well with it.

Don you feel the same as me?

Loves, wena

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2011-04-17T11:20:00.001+08:00

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2011-04-15T16:58:00.000+08:00

A happy Surprise

I was really late cause i was rushing for my report that day Met my brothers like finally!

Had a simple dinner and chat.

I miss them so much too!!!!! All of us are really busy with our work as well.

Rant to them about this person who stab me.

But its over! Forget about it! =DD

I really miss them so much!

I miss those days when we will hang out right after school.

Spam photos with our cameras and bitch about everything.

Life was good then even with all the stress around.

Still the grass will always looks greener on the other side right.

We shall hangon out with tgt soon!

p/s: i wish great health for her. =)) Take care alright!! ^^

Loves, wena

2011-04-15T14:12:00.000+08:00

Last Day of Sem1.2

SE3221. A level three module under Southeast East.
A module that was my second choice during the bidding week. I could still remember clearly, how i had come down to this decision. Sounds hilarious to others but i actually did that to let god and fate to decide for me.

Now, school has comes to an end. I will say it confidently that I never regret bidding for this module!

Rehearsal for our performance held on 9 April.

This is my first ever performance in NUS. What really amazed me was the number of hrs, we took to train for this "last minute" decision. It took us 5HRS. YES! JUST 5HRS and we are up on the stage performing.

I played the angklung in Thai style. Its not my decision to choose but rather our class as a whole.

Fate isnt it?? =D

p/s: I did a presentation today in lecture and i shared my Angklung experience with the class. Then i received a message from wende, regarding Mr khamis inviting us to check out on Siglap Sec's performance. Another news came along from Jialin, asking me to take a trip down for HS's SYF this year! Im so excited over it!!!!

BUT FREAKING EXAMS. =(

Coming back, i had so much fun with this bunch of friends i have made.

Really. For once i felt happiness in sch.

This is Samantha. Clique with her well. Best of all, she is staying near me!!!!! ^^

Likewise, with Lynn. ^^

However, she missed out the performance due to her work.

One sem just gone like this. =(

Whatever it is, I never regret taking up this mod!!!!!!!!!

loves, Wena

2011-04-15T13:11:00.000+08:00

A moment of cheers!

Self declared that school has come to an end.

However....

Exams are around the corner.

Loves, wena

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2011-04-06T18:32:00.001+08:00

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2011-04-06T17:23:00.000+08:00

FAKE Strangers.

Everyone is wearing a fake mask in front of them.

Do you too?

Hectic. Stressful and Worse week is ending soon.

Mugging week Starts to Exam!

Totally cant wait for exams to be over!!!! I don wan to see them anymore!

Shall head to my blading session during my holidays! Shall slim down all the weight i gain ever since CNY!

Loves, wena

2011-04-02T14:52:00.002+08:00

Interested in modeling?

Pardon the lack of professionalism. Still on the verge of learning.

Did a wedding shoot on 16.7.11 for Charise and Louis 's big day.

*****************

Did a photoshoot last week. (02.04.11)

C1

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C2

C3

C4

Like the photos i took?
Im looking for people (Both gender) to model for my personal photoshooting.

Pls take note! Its for my personal photoshooting. Quality of the photos will not be assured as compared to those professional/advance. Im using my 400D canon; Tamron 18-200mm lens; w/o external flash -who just likes to take nice photos. =)

Any participants interested, could kindly leave a comment or formspring me with your details and any inquires. No worries! There are no charges or requirements for this photos and shooting.
We could do further discussions if you have any doubts.
=D

Loves, wena

2011-04-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

There Still be NO FML anymore!

I broke down ytd when i receive this email from XXX. whom she sent me an email giving me intensive critics, worse of all the way she sounded was similar to someone who i have encountered before and they had the same name. FATE to meet such back stabbers in life.

Feels like pitching her tits and snap it right in front of her face - i wan to see her scream like hell!

I know i feels like a bitch but she made me to feel like one! HAHAHA!

Nearly fell into the traps of giving up and depression due to the amount of unnecessary stress that have been collecting over my shoulders. The amount had reach to an extend of me having the idea of suicidal. I know this is insane, totally stupidness thoughts and definitely there are people will be scolding me. Trying to awaken me. Im feeling so much better after consulting and realizing whats the problem within me.

So I want to let all my friends out there know that I love you guys so so much!
Those who had responded to me; saying hi and take care. I really appreciate them so much! Knowing so many friends actually are caring for me.
Especially some. Thank you for all the never ending support that you given me and care!
I really really appreciated them. *im lost of words now*
I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW I LOVE YOU!

No one could ever replace them in my heart and you guys rox; change my life so much.
Im so honored to have met you guys! REALLY.
LOVE YOU ALL!

I will stay strong. Even stronger now to fight ppl who detest on me.
Show them that even poly ppl can work things out better than them and be the honor one!

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Loves, wena

2011-03-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

Take note! =D

2011-03-26T12:21:00.001+08:00

I wonder if you ever to come across this post.

Could you please tell me how you feel throughout all these 3 years?

Now everything looks so skeptical to me.

The longer it goes, i find it even harder to find out whats behind "the" you.

I don know this. So i assume it. Then i make a fust out of it.

When can i know the secret?

loves, wena

2011-03-23T19:43:00.001+08:00

Stress?!
Yes i am.

But school is in its week 10 alread, its coming to an end soon!!! Cant wait!! Especially facing those pathetic faces that i hate to see. Anyway, I had an awesome trip down to sentosa with WP clique last saturday. Even though i didnt complete some of my work on time, seriously hack the shit out of it.

Exams in 3 weeks time ~

The sun was really scorching that saturday morning but it started to pour in the noon.

The food was great and what's more its prepared by the guys. HAHAHA!

Thank you guys! ^^

Caught this movie with A. I was grabbing his arm most of the time. HAHA!

If you guys are into war and battle, this is something you should not miss seriously. ^^ I nearly fall asleep in the front portion. But trying to wake myself up.

"marines!" They are so wow wow to me~~~ * fantasies*

This was few week ago. Went out for a Malay Village - Kuda Kepang for one of my module.

Their performance were really interesting but it makes us feel skeptical on certain issues. Those chanting and smelling of incense, etc. But there are also similar performance done by the Chinese as well. After all it depends on each of us to believe it or not. =)

Really nice to meet these girls! ^^

Best they are staying near me. So happy about this. =DD And this is our ex-lecturer. Initially we thought that we really like him but after attending the replacement lecturer, she is so so SO MUCH better than him!

We love her more!

Trying to bargain for watever we want. HAHAHA!

NO FINAL EXAMS! ^^

Thats all folks.

p/s: i will be screwed by my team mates tml
p/s: should i really give up??

loves,wena

2011-03-20T17:22:00.000+08:00

Its so hard to trust someone.

Just so skeptical over the feelings on things that seems so unreal. One lie is enough to make everything turn out so nasty. But is okay. Closing one eye- probably will turns thing much better on the outside but you will have the fear hidden right inside you.

p/s: i cant wait for everything to be over soon!!!

p/s: i wan holidays! I need them!

Loves, wena

2011-03-19T06:22:00.000+08:00

FML. FUCK

Blogged at 6.15am

"Credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/garyseven/3037408126/"

I woke up at 4am! Read my mails and saw something really pisses me off to the max!

Remembered my previous blog post about those shitty gp mates. Was ponder if im the one giving problems to them, ultimately i seriously don see im in their way of doing work. I rushed the necessary slides and essay out till 3am in the morning. Yet they didnt used much of my contents (20% usage).

Why am i doing this to myself?! So i emailed them! Are they unsatisfied with my contents or irrelevant? I even emailed them to inform them that i will be covering on the 2nd topic but they passed it to someone else, while i already had done some edition to the ppt already!

FUCK

There are 66 slides.

So the rest have 16 slides, while i have 8?!

Does JC ppl thinks that the more you talk the better?! I shall just let you do it then.

p/s: this is soci mod, there is not theoretical you can talk about. LAME PPL!

All this will be over soon right! I hope so too!

SORRY! BUT IM SO PISSED OFF WITH PPL WHO WORKS THING WITHOUT INFORMING ME

Loves,wena

2011-03-16T11:15:00.002+08:00

Am.I.A.BOY?

Have been thinking a lot lately. Emo-ing, moving into darkness is not the solutions. But we really had to find our way out from the hole and do our best. I know its said easy more than doing it. Myself is in this situation now! Things are really aint working out well or even smoothly. The "forceful" side of me is always pondering why things had to be in such a terrible situations for me! =(
"LIFE JUST SUX TTM"

This time round i really couldnt find anyone to talk to. Probably their remarks are not the nice stuffs that i wan to hear? I don know. I dislike the feelings when ppl demoralized me more. It just makes me even worse. Yeap! I cannot accept facts. So back again, i tend to keep everything within myself. Silly i know.

I JUST WAN TO LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST
loves, wena

2011-03-13T08:23:00.002+08:00

NO way!

p/s: im always under dress and yet don mind all the Ultra ugly photos of me posted up.
Shall show you guys one. The most ultimate photo that i had ever had. Its really funny! XD

My nuffnang first-coming-in cheque amount
, took me 4 years to earn that small pity. =X

This shows how bad my blog is doing! But its alright! I started blogging not because i wan to be some top-notch blogger; being recognized ny my readers or so. I just need a place for me to rant about my daily stuff and share my activities with my beloved ones. Clicking on the past post, reading them though again. Did made me realized how i could have change/ had changed regardless of physically or mentally. I HAD TO GROW EVEN STRONGER! ^^

I should stop being so (forever) pessimistic about everything.

On the positive side, i did earn that few buck right! HAHA

On the other hand, its time for me to do something else to promote my humble and bitchy blog.

Haven been blogging since the past few months. Being caught up with all assignments and such - from a lively blog with some amt of readers to a place which people will click on for the next few mths.

Done with this factually post before i goes on and on.

THATS REALLY BORING ISNT!

p/s: Gosh! I just checked and it took me 5 years instead of 4! =X HAHA!
Loves, wena

2011-03-12T06:52:00.000+08:00

Some Rants.

which im really unhappy about

This semester I had 6 Projects on hand and 1 was down this Thursday.

2 will be due this coming week.

Another 2 due following week.

Last project will due on the last week of semester.

But i have tons of assessments as well! =(

So Im not ranting on how much workloads i have, instead im going to bitch on some ppl.

As a poly grad entering into a local uni., especially entering into a Faculty which most probably you could not find any/few poly peeps. You will meet tons of JC ppl.

Ppl who detests on you, discriminate you in a sarcastically way.

I know ppl bitch about me on how i write about this post - why emo, life is too short to emo, don always so emo, etc. Come on everyone bitches on everyone/thing. But this issue seriously can get so fucked up, when you really meet THESE JC PPL who detest you so strongly. AND THEY ARE REALLY FAKE IN FRONT OF YOU OR OTHERWISE. DIRECT CRITICISMS!

Of course, Im not referring to all JC ppl, just some particulars. Even though i know life is too short to emo, complain, bitch, just be content with what i have now and such, it's not that simple! Having to complete a certain task, not just interest plays apart but company is important as well. I know UNI life is said to be REALLY INDEPENDENT, but at least you should have one or two friends. Not for me in this case.

Then coming to projects, when you meet ppl who really sux. up. We just had to sux our thumbs and remain silents, since your comments/recommendations are not viewed or even being heard. I am doing a sociology module in this sem, was in a gp of four girls containing a geo. major yr3, a bus. major yr4, a soci. major yr1 and me. THIS YR4 BUS member seriously have some problem with handling this module and when we are having discussions meetings, she only having eye-contact with the geo Yr3 member ONLY AND ALWAYS. As if the rest are non-existence.

So for this particular mod, we have to complete 1ppt and essay that suppose to be related. The thing is in SOCIOLOGY, THERE ISN'T RIGHT OR WRONG ANSWER.

PROBABLY THERE ISNT ANY ANSWER AT ALL!

But the way she interprets it, THERE MUST BE A ANSWER FOR IT.

"OMG! pls there isnt any answer or specific method or things we had to look on it" came bubbling up in me.

As our lecturer had came up a daft outline for both our ppt and essay, in order for us to have a kick start. So when we were discussing on what location we had to present about; she goes like "we must answer all the qus that the lect listed out, we die-die must find a topic that can fits every ques and we must have a argument topic!"

These really seem so irrelevant to me at all! I don see a need to have an argument statement. Really!

Cause there isn't a need, furthermore this is soci. What is there to argue about? NOTHING.

Worse of all, she actually had consulted the lecturer about what are the topic she wants to see via our ppt.

She mentioned friendly-ly that "ohh! there isn't anything particular that im looking for. There isnt any specific things that i wan to see from you guys! Probably you guys can just talk about your experiences, sentosa, USS, MBS, etc! That will be so interesting!"

I goes "yeah yeah you are right! *nod head vigourously!*"

Previously, i did suggest about this places before we even consulted the lect, and the YR4 responed that I don see a point that why should we discuss about this location cause there isnt any historical background and not much issues to talk about. So again, i suggested on Chinatown, little India. She replied again that the lecturer had already mentioned in the lecture, i don think is visible to mention it again in our tutorial ppt.

WTF she wants. Then she didnt come up with any ideas just feedbacks of cannot, NO, THIS IS NOT VISIBLE, I DON SEE THAT WE SHOULD MENTION ABOUT IT.

IN THE END, SHE CHOOSE CHINATOWN FOR HER CASE STUDIES.

Total lame shit!

p/s: whenever she talks, she will kinda enlarge her eye lids. Looks aggressive and commanding! HATE IT!
p/ss: There's not answer, don need to look for them cause soci is a versatile mod

Fashion Fetish

2011-03-11T10:36:00.002+08:00

I love Heels so much! but i can't wear them frequently.

p/s: this is fun!

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2011-03-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

3 YEARS OF MOMENTS

36 mths of relationship. Its not long neither is it short too. Getting together and getting to involve in a rs is easy but maintaining it is really hard. People said that trust and honesty is the most important factors to hold on with the other half. I do agree. Yet at times, jealousy comes into play and turn everything worse.

Explanation and understand then comes into play.

Thank you bf!!!

For the pass 36mths.

The tolerance

the forgiving

the understanding

the jealousy you had

the memories

the joy

the company

the laughter and fun

Everything that you had given to me

I.LOVE.YOU.

Loves, wena

2011-03-09T21:19:00.000+08:00

First post in March 11.

Anticipate for 10.03.11!
The day which we had made our promise to each other. =D
But A. right now is out sailing. Will miss the chance talking to him our stuff. I don know if this is seen on most couple these days, that not celebrating any anniversaries or and special days, such like Valentine' Day.

For us, we don celebrate anything unless our time don clash or probably something really meaningful to us.
I used to fantasize about how fabulous my RS can be with my perfect bf. It's fantastic and Im content about it too! Though we have been quarreling so much for the past few mths, he always give in to me. But at times he really pissed me off, yet i will give in to him too!!!

Im going to stop here. Otherwise, i will go on and on. Shall keep the rest of the post for tml.

p/s: i have 6 projects on hand.
p/s: 3 projects meeting tml which all clashes tgt! =(
p/s: pls let me succeed in life!

loves, wena

2011-02-27T10:28:00.000+08:00

A moment of angst!

It's over then.
Loves, wena

2011-02-16T19:10:00.000+08:00

Spent my Sat night out with the WP cliques and seniors!

People really change so much within a short time.

Just had my first mid-term paper. I screwed it up. =X

Hope everyone else are the same as well. So they could really moderate the grades.

p/s: I really wish i could do well in almost everything.

p/s: and earn as much as possible. Or is it really impossible?

Loves,wena

2011-02-06T20:32:00.001+08:00

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2011-02-06T19:56:00.000+08:00

CNY Day 1 was spent well.
Visited all my relatives in a short time.

The nostalgic feelings is back when we all once gather tgt for a horror movie in my uncle room.

As well as a new family member joined us last year.
The age gap was really huge! But everyone is doting on JX so much!! ^^
He is turning 1 years old already! =DD

CNY went by so fast! Haven really had enjoyed my holidays.
So much readings and deadlines to meet! =X
Wat a life.

So hows your CNY?! ^^

loves, wena

2011-02-04T15:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Will update here soon! Deadlines for all projects are coming up.
Loves, wena

2011-01-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Week 2.

Got all my tutorial slots except for my soci- tourism.

Having this system is just a hindrance than of any help pls. Even though Arts Fac, we could wish our electives, planning of our timetable. Which some people even manage to squeeze into 3 days week of sch. But the bidding and balloting just sux.

Today starts of my ES module, the classmates was really fun. Some how i found some slight joy in sch. Because we are all in the same category of ppl in uni. HAHA!

p/s: don think too much about gender. You should be happy for me ma. =PP

Loves, wena

2011-01-16T04:49:00.000+08:00

Im still awake at this moment.

It makes me starts thinking so much! Can't get any excited already! =DD

P/s: Hope sch will be fine next week!

Loves, wena

2011-01-14T05:05:00.000+08:00

Im still awake at this moment.

Probably i have been cracking my brain so much this few weeks.

And now at 5.00am, the account went wrong! Gosh!

I had to wait for 1 month just for it to be clear off.

All the best

Loves, wena

2011-01-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

So much things that i wan to do, but due to financial constraints! =(

Anyone happens to hop by my blog and read this post:

PLS INTRO ME SOME PART TIME JOBS. Which is really flexi!

I wanna earn some bucks within a month to start something even bigger. Can i?

I wanna get more clothes too! May I?

p/s: I wish i could. Seriously.

First day of school. Stress still not yet finding its way to me. =)

Everything will be just fine right?!